Rough day. No reason. Must be hormonal fluctuations. Intense fears regarding the health of the baby, the upcoming birth, the lack of readiness I seem to be feeling in preparation for his arrival. I know these sorts of thoughts are normal, and even healthy for a pregnant woman to be experiencing but that knowledge doesn't make it any easier for me. I am huge now. Strange men have been saying ridiculous things to me when we are in public places (for example, in the grocery store, "Would you pass me that 'watermelon' so I can ring it up" and "Whoa! You got twins in there? No? Wow, Are you sure??!!", waiting at the street corner, "Do you need a ride? I'm really worried about you!", and walking to the post office, "Looks like someone's about to drop!!!" I suppose these comments may sound somewhat endearing but I can assure you, they are wholly annoying.
My back is beyond sore, My pelvis feels like it is about to smash apart into 100 pieces, I can't manage to roll myself out of bed in the middle of the night to make yet another bathroom trip because of the excruciating pain, and I am so tiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrred. And grouchy. Poo. Bleh. Grrrrrrrrr. WAAAA!
We attempted to run errands this morning & afternoon, as I had a small list of the last few things needed before the baby comes. We went to a few different stores, only to come out with nothing. It was a fruitless trip and I was wholly deflated, and started to get really depressed that I wouldn't be ready, That everything wouldn't be perfect...Yes, I know, crazy pregnant thinking. And the thing is, I was fully aware of this and yet it made no difference. I hope this baby comes sooner than later because I am going crazy!
Of course, I will be totally fine tomorrow, even giddy. I love it.
Alrighty then, I am done with my little dance of complaint.
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Oh yes. I remember it well. I think I had ALL of those comments. "Whoa you look like you are about to pop any minute" "Twins?" etc... so crass. So tired of being looked at and noticed.
ReplyDeleteYou are almost done friend. You have nothing to worry about in birthing. Embrace it. Don't be scared. Charlotte's birth (although not painful) was the most empowering experience of my life. Charlotte was 10 days early and I didn't feel prepared at all. But I quickly learned that babies don't really need anything. seriously. nothing.
xo xo If you need to talk.
aw honey, i know exactly what you're feeling. rolling over in bed is now one of my least fave things in the world. nights are nearly sleepless these days so it's making everything feel worse on top of all the hormones. we're almost there. hang in there, mama!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, Sammi! I think you're very brave - even the idea of pregnancy terrifies me. :-)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comments girls (-: You are all very sweet, and I thank you for the cheering words of encouragement (-:
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Wow that would be annoying! I cant believe people say things! Sam you look great! I dont think I will be a strong! I cant wait to see baby boy photos! :)
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